Okay....

Here is one of my non-photography posts.

Hey. I warned you.

I was hoping for a drama free blog, but sometimes.....life happens.
Unfortunately, sometimes it's not good.

I currently live with my boyfriend and his two children. He is one of most wonderful men I have ever met. He's kind, patient, funny, and very goofy. His boys are great too. The oldest is a teenager so sometimes we see that teenage attitude come out, but he really is a great kid. The youngest is a whole different story. He has been diagnosed with high functioning autism.He's great to be around when he is having a good day, but sometimes when he has bad days....it's really bad.

I try not to let it get to me when he says mean things or when he is rude to me,but sometimes I am not able to "just let it go". Last Wednesday was one of those days. We were supposed to go to dinner and as we were getting ready to leave, I heard it. "Why does SHE have to go?! Why can't we just go without HER?" He continued on to say how he wanted a guys dinner. Then I heard him say, "Why does SHE have to live here?!" I had reached my limit. I walked away and told them to just go. My boyfriend followed me and tried to get me to go, but I was so pissed and hurt. For the next few days, I behaved very badly. I hardly spoke to anyone in the house. I avoided them and stayed away or stayed in my bedroom. I know. Very childish of me. I am not proud of how I behaved. I was so angry and so hurt though. He says this almost every time we are going to go somewhere. I just get so tired of hearing it.

My boyfriend had reached his limit with me and the way I was dealing with this situation. I think he has been giving it a lot of thought for a little while now.
On Sunday morning, he broke up with me. I was kind of surprised, but I think I also
knew it was coming.

The strange thing about it is that he still wants us all to go to Thailand together. We have been planning our trip to Thailand since February and we leave in about a month. Am I crazy in thinking that would be a little.....uncomfortable? Or awkward?
I have offered to just cancel my portion of the reservation. The boys are very excited about going so he and the boys should go and enjoy it. He says he really wants me to go. That we can go and still have a great time together. Then what? What happens when we get back? So, my plan was to just call the airlines and see what I needed to do to cancel myself from the reservation.

My cell rang a little bit after I got to work. It was him. He says I should wait until he gets back (he had to go out of town for a couple of days). He wants us to talk about everything again. Maybe there is a way for us to make this work. So....yep, you guessed it. I told him I would wait until we talked before I did anything drastic with my reservations.

To be continued.....